Crystal Madrilejos

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Week 3 Mantra: Be Vulnerable – Day 3

Watched Brene Brown’s TED talk on vulnerability and it helped me come up with my intention for today. I intend to not try and control and predict all the outcomes of every situation but rather enjoy them in the moment and be okay with uncertainty and imperfection and not let insecurities get in the way of meaningful connections and productivity.

This weekend was for my little family. We didn’t do anything significantly different than what we normally do, though I didn’t feel as overcome with anxiety for not getting done everything on my to-do list as I normally do. It was enough to just do what I could and feel accomplishment and worthiness in those few things. I wrote blog posts. I woke up early. I was present with my family as much as I could be. Even as I felt agitation and the beginnings of my nerves starting to buzz from uncontrollable forces (*cough* hormones) I was able to calm them most of the time. There were a few moments where I started to feel some darkness creeping in my stomach and I started to question everything in a negative way. A few fleeting moments of doubt. But on a brighter note, I felt connected with Andrew. When I stopped trying to force him into my plans and analyze him, rather than just work together and allow myself to be vulnerable in front of him, I found that I felt much more optimistic about things.

This morning Quil and Ellis wanted to paint and draw so I sat with them for a little while when Andrew went to go feed the alpacas next door. It was nice to just sit and make some marks on paper with no purpose other than just to explore. Yesterday, we made a test batch of pumpkin cookies for Thanksgiving. Andrew has made these in the past, but this time we used homemade pumpkin puree from the ones we grew, harvested and froze back in September. They turned out great! Lighter in color and texture than ones we’ve had in the past with canned puree.

Past Posts
Week 3 Mantra: Be Vulnerable – Day 2
Week 2 Mantra: I Have a Plan – Day 3  
Week 2 Mantra: I Have a Plan – Day 2
Week 2 Mantra: I Have a Plan – Day 1
Mantra: Reflections on Week 1
Introduction to Creative/Life Coaching


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